Thursday
And here I am.
I hope nobody would bother reading this since I haven't updated in forever and nobody tags at my board anymore.
Life has been hellish. Well, it's not exactly THAT bad but, yeah. My calendar's all booked. And ohhh I need money and is in short supply of it. Yeah, I know Hari Rays is still on but because I got school(dammit) and my parents are working(double dammit) and the fact that my friends are too busy to bother going out with anybody at all(dammit, dammit, dammit!!) I have absolutely no fucking money left!
Rawr. I am SO pissed lar. I need a job. With good pay. But I haven't even got a job before in my entire life; so how the HELL am I supposed to know how to find one?!?!
I hate myself. That's what I think. It's life I guess. I'm getting more and more random nowadays, I think that if I hate myself it's another random thing that i have just randomly thought of for no reason at all. But sometimes; sometimes the hatred just feels so real. Real enough for you to wonder why I am thinking this way. Why am I thinking this way when I have all of my life ahead of me? Why am I thinking this way when it's just bloody lack of money that is making me feel down?!
Or maybe it isn't the money. Maybe it's something else.
I had a floorball match today. We lost. 3-4 to Singapore Polytechnic. I didn't take part in any of it. It made me feel so bad when I took pictures of the whole team crying. Made me feel like crying too. But I HAD to take pics of them crying. It's for an idea I have for my photography class. I just hope the lec would approve of the pictures.
I just.... hate life.
Thursday, November 09, 2006
