Tuesday
There are times when I wonder what would my life be like if I had made different choices.
Like if I had chosen Literature over Art. I was more interested in Literature back then. Would I have ended up a nerd with big glasses and absolutely no social life? Would I have ended up in TP?
I remember not having much of a social life in Secondary School. What if I had actually made more friends? Or if I had actually stayed quiet and ignored Nina and Shab totally? Hahah. Lots of imagery floating around.
But I am happy with my life the way it is now. And thankful too. I love art now, and animation is great.
But I still want to change. My personality, my art style, my looks? I don't know, I feel like I'm not good enough yet. Good enough for what? I have no idea. But I just want to change. This urge is getting stronger and I want to do something about it.
The unsettling dreams that kept me awake at night are back. They keep me from sleeping and make me feel the need to get things done.
And yet I can't remember anything that happens in those dreams anymore. Things happen in my dreams, and I suspect they are premonitions of something occurring in my life. These dreams that keep me awake and made me grow all these STOOOooOoOOooPID eyebags.
It's trying to tell me something, but it can't reach me. Why?
Why?
:(
Tuesday, November 06, 2007
