The days seem to be getting slower every day.It's like everybody is getting on with their lives. And I just stand and watch waiting for something to happen.
Or not.
I'm really scared right now. Sigh. There's a lot of internal conflict happening inside myself.
Sometimes I think I talk too much. Other times I think I talk too little. The rest of the time I would whack myself in the head for not talking at all. Or for talking too much in my head. Augh whatever la ayuun.
Dear ayun,
You never bothered. You never tried. One day you might regret that you didn't do anything at all.
Regret. Something you should learn to overcome.
You've got a fear too. Didn't you know? And you're super scared right now. Scared witless.
If life is a test; are you failing it yet?
Am you even going to survive the rest of this test?
Oh. Inner turmoil. I think I almost lost it for a bit today. I just stoned for 2 whole hours doing absolutely nothing. Just sitting down not even thinking of anything at all.
I remember I used to do that a lot back in secondary school. Couldn't remember why then, can't remember why I still do that now.
Absolutely nothing. That was what I was thinking about for 2 hours.
Like wow. Is this meditation? Hahah.
Hello there. My name is Froggy, or Khairun, or Ayun, or Yunie. Call me anything you want. I don't care, as long as I know that it's me being called.
I'm a fickle-minded, hypocritical, scared and bored individual who doesn't know what to do with her messed up life. Her future is bleak, and she wishes for something interesting to happen at least once within this year. It IS her final year in TP anyway.
She hated Primary school, hated Secondary school, and yet she loves Temasek Poly. Her favourite school.
I want something good to happen la please.
Oh shit I lost my glasses. Damnit.
