I had this feeling like something was missing. It reminded me of that dream where you get to school with no clothes on, but it wasn't that. It was something else.
I meant to say something nicer and more cooperative, but that's what came out. It felt like I couldn't pass up the chance to run her down. It was like letting something out that had to get out. Something that was clawing me to death from the inside.
I just sort of held my nose and sank all the way down into trouble.
It was like this big black cloud of doom sitting on my head.
It was a way only _______ had ever made me feel: like there's something on this old dried up planet that's really worth the price of admission, that almost makes up for everything else.
I have to face the fact that there's a day out there. You know. Waiting for me. It's like there's this wall between me and the day and I can't figure out how to go through it. Or maybe I don't even want to.
She prodded at the colored patches with her finger, and watched as the bright colors became matt and less vivid against her brownish skin.
Her room was gradually filling with familiar voices.
If you want to make random friends, just join in the chatroom and talk to them through there.
I made real good friends, with Kaine, this girl from Germany. She's sweet. And Hugo, from France, but he can't speak much english. Hahaha..
To anybody with a tablet: http://rosanbo.com/paintchat
And:
Somebody please watch this movie with me. I read the book a looong time ago in the regional library, and i want MOAR. Pleaaase pleease.
~ayun
Sunday, March 08, 2009
UPDATEUPDATEUPDATE
Me and nina are learning this dance. It's so DIFFICULT.
Thanks lots ninin for introducing me DBSK! Now I don't feel so pedo anymore fangirling over Hey Say JUMP. Hoho.
Final Year Project has officially ended. I can start updating now. Sorry everyone who has been frequenting and seeing no updates. It's been a while.
What's happened in my life so far.
Finished my FYP. Hung out around Tampines. Dance lessons. Hamsters! More people staying at my house. Shit happening. JCG Chalet and Hafizzie's birthday.
...Yeeeeeah. so.. Pictures!
Me and nina Don't you love her? Diyang, Samantha and the birthday boyy. Our little shrine that we made on the beach We were supposed to try to look GOOD. GOOD dammit. Wth is fizz and diyang thinking? And I look so STRESSED! D8< I look pretty fat in this photo. Aaargh, Dee. Never never take me from this angle anymore!! The chalet. OooOOoooOOOo. Diyang, Fizz and Samantha. One happy family. Yeayy.
Oh oh oh. I cleaned out my cupboards today. All my paperworks and books and comics and everything has been rearranged.
Now all my art supplies are within reach and I can concentrate on building up a portfolio. Yeahh man.
And to celebrate my efforts I even drew some pictures. Practice, practice.
Friday, March 06, 2009
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Monday
Monday, March 30, 2009
Realisation sunk in just recently.
And and and.
I realize how grateful I was to have him by my side. Cheering me on.
Smiling to lift my spirits.
Calling to make sure I'm okay.
Giving me his shoulder to cry on no matter the problem.
Keeping me sane.
He knows my tastes. He knows what's my decision.
But hey, remember that if you do need a hug or an ear, I'm here to listen. Don't go hiding in your shell!
I thought I was gonna split into two.
I don't know why. I had been so headstrong in my decision.
Maybe it's like this cos nothing has been happening.
But I firmly believe you're worth the wait, because I love you.
What more can I ask for?
Monday, March 30, 2009
Saturday
CRAMPS. I fainted from the intense pain.
Wad the hell man.
But I'm happier today, cos its the first time in a long while I feel loved.
...Somehow.
We <3s you!
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Tuesday
Its the feeling where every little thing you do as been carefully laid out and if you do something off or out of place there's hell to pay.
I feel you, poor guy.
It's almost over. I can't wait.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
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Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Saturday
I love you Kaine.
Your'e like the bestest best and not to mention sweetest online friend ever.
Thanks for worrying about me, even though you live countries away.
Love!
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Wednesday
A series of unfortunate events.
Why oh why am I always the one who gets it.
What did I do wrong.
I hope things go well tomorrow. No bad things, please, God.
I had this feeling like something was missing. It reminded me of that dream where you get to school with no clothes on, but it wasn't that. It was something else.
I meant to say something nicer and more cooperative, but that's what came out. It felt like I couldn't pass up the chance to run her down. It was like letting something out that had to get out. Something that was clawing me to death from the inside.
I just sort of held my nose and sank all the way down into trouble.
It was like this big black cloud of doom sitting on my head.
It was a way only _______ had ever made me feel: like there's something on this old dried up planet that's really worth the price of admission, that almost makes up for everything else.
I have to face the fact that there's a day out there. You know. Waiting for me. It's like there's this wall between me and the day and I can't figure out how to go through it. Or maybe I don't even want to.
She prodded at the colored patches with her finger, and watched as the bright colors became matt and less vivid against her brownish skin.
Her room was gradually filling with familiar voices.
If you want to make random friends, just join in the chatroom and talk to them through there.
I made real good friends, with Kaine, this girl from Germany. She's sweet. And Hugo, from France, but he can't speak much english. Hahaha..
To anybody with a tablet: http://rosanbo.com/paintchat
And:
Somebody please watch this movie with me. I read the book a looong time ago in the regional library, and i want MOAR. Pleaaase pleease.
~ayun
Sunday, March 08, 2009
Friday
Me and nina are learning this dance. It's so DIFFICULT.
Thanks lots ninin for introducing me DBSK! Now I don't feel so pedo anymore fangirling over Hey Say JUMP. Hoho.
Final Year Project has officially ended. I can start updating now. Sorry everyone who has been frequenting and seeing no updates. It's been a while.
What's happened in my life so far.
Finished my FYP. Hung out around Tampines. Dance lessons. Hamsters! More people staying at my house. Shit happening. JCG Chalet and Hafizzie's birthday.
...Yeeeeeah. so.. Pictures!
Me and nina Don't you love her? Diyang, Samantha and the birthday boyy. Our little shrine that we made on the beach We were supposed to try to look GOOD. GOOD dammit. Wth is fizz and diyang thinking? And I look so STRESSED! D8< I look pretty fat in this photo. Aaargh, Dee. Never never take me from this angle anymore!! The chalet. OooOOoooOOOo. Diyang, Fizz and Samantha. One happy family. Yeayy.
Oh oh oh. I cleaned out my cupboards today. All my paperworks and books and comics and everything has been rearranged.
Now all my art supplies are within reach and I can concentrate on building up a portfolio. Yeahh man.
And to celebrate my efforts I even drew some pictures. Practice, practice.
Friday, March 06, 2009
gallery
Random shit.
I drew me.
I drew me again.
This was drawn on my macbook before I lost it.
2006, from left, Rafi, me, Shabs, JM, Nina, and Khai.
Monday, March 30, 2009
I look pretty fat in this photo. Aaargh, Dee. Never never take me from this angle anymore!!
The chalet. OooOOoooOOOo.
Diyang, Fizz and Samantha. One happy family. Yeayy.
